Thursday, August 2, 2012

Implicit Trust

 Going through some pretty tough things lately. I can't do a thing about them. So I've had to trust God for the outcome. 


 Trusting is hard! 

 I thought I knew what trust meant; but what God has been asking of me, doesn't fit the excepted definition of trust. 
 
 Websters 1828 says trust is - 
 To place confidence in; to rely on.
 To believe; to credit.
 To commit to the care of, in confidence. Trust your Maker with yourself and all your concerns.
 To venture confidently.
 Confidence; a reliance or resting of the mind on the integrity, veracity, justice, friendship or other sound principal of another person.   
 To depend on; to have confidence in; to rely on.
 
 That got me thinking. Do I truly trust God? Do I use "trust" in a flippant way? 
 
 By that definition, I don't truly trust God. 
 I want Him to fix everything, I want Him to help out. But I want to know how He's going to do it, before He does it. I want to be a part of it. I want Him to have me in the center of the fix.   


 That's not truly trusting.  That's relying on myself to fix it, with God's help.  That's saying my God isn't big enough to deal with my problems, or my struggles. 


 What trust really means, and what I pretend it means, are two very different things. 


 One is a mockery to God. It's virtually saying God can't do what He says He can. It's making a liar out of Him. 


 The other is fully relying on Him to do His Divine will. Knowing that He will do what's best for me right now. And not only is it best for me right now. It's best for me for all of eternity.


 God is not a short term thinker like us.  He sees into the future. He made the future. 
 How could I ever doubt that He knows what He's doing? How could I ever wonder if He knows what's ahead for me, and those around me? 
 
 I need to learn to truly trust God. And obey Him based off that trust.   If I don't obey Him, He cannot do the work He wants in me, because I am standing in His way. 


 I have to trust Him even when I don't see the reason for it. Even when I don't know what He's doing.

Trust And Obey

When we walk with the Lord in the light of His Word,
What a glory He sheds on our way!
While we do His good will, He abides with us still,
And with all who will trust and obey.

Refrain:
Trust and obey, for there’s no other way
To be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.

Not a shadow can rise, not a cloud in the skies,
But His smile quickly drives it away;
Not a doubt or a fear, not a sigh or a tear,
Can abide while we trust and obey.

Not a burden we bear, not a sorrow we share,
But our toil He doth richly repay;
Not a grief or a loss, not a frown or a cross,
But is blessed if we trust and obey.

But we never can prove the delights of His love
Until all on the altar we lay;
For the favor He shows, for the joy He bestows,
Are for them who will trust and obey.

Then in fellowship sweet we will sit at His feet,
Or we’ll walk by His side in the way;
What He says we will do, where He sends we will go;
Never fear, only trust and obey.

 I haven't been trusting Him with my all.
 I can trust Him with myself most of the time. But when I have to trust Him with others. I have a hard time. This should never be.  


 This week I've had trials I can't bear on my own. I have to trust them to Christ. 

 I've been so worried about them, that I haven't hardly slept, because I didn't trust Him with my cares. I even lost a bit of weight. And that's not bad. I want to. But worrying is the worst way to do it.


 Today I finally came to trust Him, and have had such peace. Peace that passes all understanding. "I've a peace in my heart that the world never gave, a peace it cannot take away"


 To trust God implicitly. That's my goal.  To trust Him, is a sign of my love for Him.  "To love Christ more - This is the deepest need. The constant cry of my soul." ~ Elizabeth Prentiss


 This week has really been a test of my faith in God. A test of my trust in Him.  I've made this quote my daily "motto" - "To learn Christ. This is life!" ~ Elizabeth Prentiss


 God has been teaching me His ways. Little by little. It's a painful process.  But "When I am tried, and purified. I shall come forth as gold" 

 The future may look bleak. My dreams may seem to be gone. They may seem to be a mockery.  But Christ will win the battle. When Christ is at the head of the army. Victory is sweet. :) 

Be Thou my battle-shield, sword for my fight,
Be Thou my dignity, Thou my delight.
Thou my soul's shelter, Thou my high tower.
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power. 

Posted on Google+ June 25th 2012

 In the service of my Father
      Hallie

Christians Letting God Down?

 Does it bother anyone, how we as Christians, have become so removed from Christian principals that we, now, are worse then the heathens were in the Dark ages?   


 Why have we allowed this to happen? why have we lost interest in Christianity? 

 When we lost interest, and quit caring, that's when everything stared to be a mess.

 Everyone says "in this day and age" as if everything is different now, with technology and all. 


 We're no different then they were in the dark ages! but we've come up with an excuse for our delinquency.  

 What a shame! What are we going to tell God on judgement day? how do we give Him an excuse for what we've done?  We know the ones we use now aren't going to wash.... what are we going to do? 


 It's our fault, and nobody else's... are we going to fix the problem we have created? or just let it get worse, and tell God "well, with all this technology, things are different, and nobody will listen..."


 Technology is a wonderful tool, if we'll just use it. If we would get past our laziness, and do something for the Kingdom of God! 


 I'm going to tell God "I used the tools you gave me, and I spoke up for you when no one else would. I told people about you, even when they didn't want to hear. I stood for the right, and Your Will even in the face of adversity."

 How many of us can say that now? If Christ returned today, how many of us could say that? or would we have to say "I didn't think you would come yet, and I'm not ready; I haven't done anything for you" 

 I'm ashamed to say the latter would have to be my answer if He came today.

Posted on Google+ June 3rd 2012

 In the service of my Father
      Hallie

God Dwells In The Thick Darkness

 Going through tough times, we seem to think is a judgement of God... but God seems to be saying otherwise to me, in my trials. 



 I think I can safely relate trials, to darkness... we can't see what's ahead; and we're afraid to take the next step. 

 But, when I think about being in the dark about the future, and all the uncertainties of it, this thing comes into my head of "God dwells in the thick darkness" so, I finally looked up some verses, and this is what I found...

Exodus 20:21
And the people stood afar off, and Moses drew near unto the thick darkness where God was.

I Kings 8:12
Then spake Solomon, The LORD said that he would dwell in the thick darkness.

 Maybe when God sends these trials, He's bringing us into that thick darkness, so we can be near Him? 

 If He dwells in the thick darkness, then why should we be afraid of it? 

 If everything is going "good" for us, then we tend to forget God, and do our own thing. But, when things aren't going so "good" we run to God for help. 

 Things going "good" for us, really aren't. We think if there are no troubles, then things are good. If things were good when there are no trials, God would leave us there; but He sends the trials so we can be one with Him. 

 William Wallace had everything going "good" for him... he was newly married, had a baby on the way, and was secluded from the world; all he had to do was be happy. 

 Wallace did everything in his power to obey God. He served Him with everything in him, and never let anything get in his way of serving Christ. 

 The English had killed his parents. But Wallace had Christ, and his new, up and coming family. 

 Suddenly, for no apparent reason God allowed Hesselrigge to come and kill Marion. (Wallace's wife)   
 She had done nothing wrong; nothing to deserve death. She too, had been serving God with her life.  

 Why did God take her from a husband that loved her above everything else; and leave Wallace desolate? 
 Because He wanted to do a work in him; that couldn't be done without that trial. 

 Wallace could have done like anyone else would have done; he could have gone into hiding, and felt sorry for himself, that all this had happened to him.
 He could have blamed it all on God, and turned his back on Christ. But he didn't. He knew God has a reason for every trial, and he knew God was going to use this one for His glory. 

 Wallace's faith, never once, wavered. He knew his God, and he knew there had to be a reason, because God is not a cruel God. 

 He sought God's face. He went to the throne room of God, and dedicated his life to Christ's service, and glory; and to serve his country. 

 God in turn, gave Wallace such a peace; such a oneness with Himself, that in-spite of all the trials he would face in the future; he would never depart from the will of God. And God blessed that. 

 God brought Wallace into that thick darkness, so he could know God more fully.


 This quote from Wallace really hit me the other day. 

 The Abthanes of Scotland, (or the chiefs, Lords and nobles) have just taken Wallace to trial for treason, after he has freed the country 3 times. And they, being ungrateful, and jealous, have falsely accused him of treason.

 Wallace has just beaten the English army for something like the 6th time, and Edward (King of England) is offering terms of peace. Dishonorable terms. This is the dialogue that took place between Baron Hilton of the English army, and Sir William Wallace. An excerpt from the book.

"Hilton said that King Edward, more than ever impressed with the wondrous talents of Sir William Wallace, and solicitous to make a friend of so heroic an enemy, had sent him an offer of grace, which, if he contemned, must be the last. He offered him a theatre whereon he might display his peerless endowments to the admiration of the world, --- the kingdom of Ireland, with it's yet unreaped fields of glory, and all the ample riches of it's abundant provinces, should be his! Edward only require, in return for his royal gift, that he should abandon the cause of Scotland, swear fealty to him for Ireland, and resign into his hands one whom he had proscribed as the most ungrateful of traitors. (speaking of Bruce, the rightful King of Scotland, and Wallace's best friend) In double acknowledgment for the latter sacrifice, Wallace need only send to England a list of those Scottish lords against whom he bore resentment, and their fates should be ordered according to his dictates.
Edward concluded his offers by inviting him immediately to London, to be invested with his new sovereignty; and Hilton ended his address by showing him the madness of abiding in a country where almost every chief, secretly or openly, carried a dagger against his life; and therefore he exhorted him no longer to contend for a nation so unworthy the freedom, that it bore with impatience the only man who had the courage to maintain it's independence by virtue alone.
Wallace replied calmly, and without hesitation: 'To this message an honest man can make but one reply. As well might your sovereign exact of me to dethrone the angles of heaven, as to require me to subscribe to his proposals. They do but mock me; and aware of my rejection, they are thus delivered, to throw the whole blame of this cruelly-persecuting war upon me. Edward knows that as a knight, a true Scot, and a man, I should dishonor myself to accept even life, ay, or the lives of all my kindred, upon these terms.'
Hilton interrupted him by declaring the sincerity of Edward; and, contrasting it with the ingratitude of the people whom he had served, he conjured him, with every persuasive of rhetoric, every entreaty dictated by a mind that revered the very firmness he strove to shake, to relinquish his faithless country, and become the friend of a king ready to receive him with open arms. Wallace shook his head; and with an incredulous smile which spoke his thoughts of Edward, while his eyes beamed kindness upon Hilton, he answered; 'Can the man who would bribe me to betray a friend, be faithful in his friendship? But that is not the weight with me. I was not brought up in those schools, my good baron, which teach that sound policy or true self-interest can be separated from virtue. When I was a boy, my father often repeated to me this proverb; --- ''Know of a certainty that virtue, the best of possessions, never can exist under the bond of servility.''
'I learned it then; I have since made it the standard of my actions, and I answer your monarch in a word. Were all my countrymen to resign their claims to the liberty which is their right, I alone would declare the independence of my country, and by God's assistance, while I live, acknowledge no other master but the laws of St. David (King David I of Scotland) and the legitimate heir of his blood!' The glow of resolute patriotism which overspread his countenance while he spoke, was reflected by the fluctuating color on that of Hilton. 'Noble chief!' cried he; 'I admire while I regret, I revere the virtue which I am even now constrained to denounce. These principals, bravest of men, might have suited the simple ages of Greece and Rome; a Phocion or a Fabricus might have uttered the like, and compelled the homage of their enemies; but in these days, such magnanimity is considered frenzy, and ruin is it's consequence.' --- 'And shall a Christian,' cried Wallace, reddening with the flush of honest shame, 'deem the virtue which even heathens practised with veneration, of too pure a nature to be exercised by men taught by Christ himself? There is blasphemy in the idea, and I can bear no more.'
Hilton, in some confusion, excused his argument by declaring that it proceeded from his observations on the conduct of men. 'And shall we,' replied Wallace, 'follow a multitude to do evil? I act to one Being alone. Edward must acknowledge His supremacy, and by that know that my soul is above all price!' --- 'Am I answered?' said Hilton, and then hastily interrupting himself, ha added, in a voice even of supplication. 'Your fate rests on your reply! Oh! noblest of warriors consider only for a day!' --- 'Not for a moment,' said Wallace; 'I am sensible to your kindness; but my answer to Edward has been pronounced.' "

 How many of us could say that in the like situation? Wallace was executed a few weeks later.
 He could have bought his life, by accepting those terms.
 But he loved God and country SO much, that he willingly, and without hesitation gave his life for them. He knew that's what he was doing. But God was calling him into the thick darkness; and he obeyed the call.
 It's always darkest just before the dawn. Wallace went into that thick darkness, just before the dawn of his life in Heaven, with his God, and family. 

 Now, please don't take this as we're all going to die from these trials.... we won't unless God says so. 
 But we are to die to ourselves through them. God is calling us to come into the thick darkness, where He is.... are we going to answer without complaint?
 When I read the entire account of Wallace's life, and see the work God did through him; and how he went through more trials; more, bigger, trials then I could ever imagine; without complaint.  How can I complain, and wonder if God still cares, because He is letting this happen to me?
 It's now my daily prayer, that God will give me more trials... more darkness... because He lives there. I want to know God, even if it means physical death; because the life that comes after is so much more then it's said to be! 

 I want to be like Christ. He suffered; He went through all kinds of hardships... and as Wallace said ~

"Did I believe it my Fathers will that I should die, at every pore I would submit, for so his immaculate Son laid down His life for a rebellious world. And is a servant greater than his master, that I should say, Exempt me from this trial? No! I await His summons, but he strengthens my soul by an assurance I feel here." (laying his hand on his heart)

 Oh! to have the faith that Wallace had! to go, even to the grave, without a complaint, because I know it's God's will for me, and His way is always best. 

Psalms 39:9
I was dumb, I opened not my mouth; because thou didst it.

 How can we ever doubt the goodness of God? If He is sending these trials, it's because He loves us enough to do a work in us. He loves us the way we are; but He loves us too much to leave us here. 

Psalm 27:8
When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, LORD, will I seek.

 Posted on Google+ May 25th 2012

 In the service of my Father
       Hallie

Trials Sent From Above

 No matter how dark the future may look, or if I'm afraid to take the next step because I can't see what's ahead, God is there, and He helps me through. :) 


 I've heard so many people going through rough times say, "God has forgotten me, or else He wouldn't let this stuff happen to me" and I'm standing on the outside, looking on, and thinking, "how God loves them, they are coming closer to Christ through it all" 

 Yet when I go through tough times, I'm saying "why does God let me go through this? what am I not seeing? what did I do wrong? I can't see that this is doing anybody any good, why is He letting it happen to me? where is He?" but what I'm not seeing is His loving arms are all around me... and what I'm not seeing is He took on my sin, so I can suffer for Him, and be with Him for eternity.

 It sounds ludicrous to say He made it so I can suffer.... but really, He did... and how I thank Him for it! by making it so I can suffer, He made it so I can be near and dear to Him! How wonderful He is! And it's not what I did wrong that's making me suffer... it's what I've done right, by inviting Him in to do whatever work He sees fit to do in me. :) 


 I used to be grumpy when Mom and my sister always played Ron Hamilton's "Wing's As Eagles" CD, but now it has become one of my favorites. :) The song on there, "Rejoice In The Lord" has been such a comfort to me...

God never moves without purpose or plan
When trying His servant and molding a man.
Give thanks to the LORD though your testing seems long;
In darkness He giveth a song.

I could not see through the shadows ahead;
So I looked at the cross of my Savior instead.
I bowed to the will of the Master that day;
Then peace came and tears fled away.


Now I can see testing comes from above;
God strengthens His children and purges in love.
My Father knows best, and I trust in His care;
Through purging more fruit I will bear.

O Rejoice in the LORD
He makes no mistake,
He knoweth the end of each path that I take,
For when I am tried
And purified,
I shall come forth as gold.

 Wow! what a song! and it's SO true! God does have a purpose for everything, and He sends the trials for our own good. :) 


 With a friend, and brother like Him, how can we ever doubt that we're cared for? 
 Jesus prays for me, and is always there for me, all I have to do is call on Him... His ear is not deaf, so that He cannot hear me... His ear is right there, tuned to my voice, so as not to miss a word.
 I love Him so! because He first loved me! :D Which brings me to another song... :) 


  1. My Jesus, I love Thee, I know Thou art mine;
    For Thee all the follies of sin I resign;
    My gracious Redeemer, my Savior art Thou;
    If ever I loved Thee, my Jesus, ’tis now.
  2. I love Thee because Thou hast first loved me,
    And purchased my pardon on Calvary’s tree;
    I love Thee for wearing the thorns on Thy brow;
    If ever I loved Thee, my Jesus, ’tis now.
  3. I’ll love Thee in life, I will love Thee in death,
    And praise Thee as long as Thou lendest me breath;
    And say when the death dew lies cold on my brow,
    If ever I loved Thee, my Jesus, ’tis now.
  4. In mansions of glory and endless delight,
    I’ll ever adore Thee in heaven so bright;
    I’ll sing with the glittering crown on my brow,
    If ever I loved Thee, my Jesus, ’tis now.

 Oh shame to man, that we could ever doubt such a friend, such a Savior! Funny how a thought like that can be so sobering, yet fill you with so much joy at the same time.
 I think of Him with a saddened joy.
 The sacrifice He made for me, and the way in which I doubt Him, after all He went through for me, fills me with sadness... yet, His love for me in-spite of all my faults, fills me with unspeakable joy! :D 

 He looked beyond my faults, and saw my need.... (another song) but He didn't see my need, and turn a blind eye to it... He filled that need! :D What an amazing, loving God He is! :D


 Sung to the Londonderry Air (Danny Boy) 

He Looked Beyond My Faults

Amazing Grace..Will always be my song of praise. 
For it was grace, that brought me liberty, 
I do not know, just why He came to love me so. 
He looked beyond my faults and saw my need. 

I shall forever lift mine eyes to Calvary, 
To view the cross, where Jesus died for me 
How marvelous, His grace that caught my falling soul 
He Looked beyond my faults and saw my need.

 What a mighty, loving, patient, forgiving, God we serve!  
 He knows the hurt we go through... He went through it too... but He, in His mercy allows us to go through it, because He can see the future, and He knows what's best for me... for all of us. :) 



 Posted on Google+ May 24th 2012

 In the service of my Father
       Hallie

Songs That Cheer The Lonely Heart

I'm not sure what God is trying to teach me through loneliness... but this song and others to come, and stick in my head on those days... 

He washed my eyes with tears that I might see,
The broken heart I had was good for me;
He tore it all apart and looked inside,
He found it full of fear and foolish pride.
He swept away the things that made me blind,
And then I saw the clouds were silver lined;
And now I understand 'twas best for me,
He washed my eyes with tears that I might see.

He washed my eyes with tears that I might see,
The glory of Himself revealed to me;
I did not know that He had wounded hands,
I saw the blood He spilt upon the sands.
I saw the marks of shame and wept and cried,
He was my substitute for me He died;
And now I'm glad He came so tenderly
And washed my eyes with tears that I might see. ~ By Ira Stanphill



This is the second of three that have been running through my head all day....
Be still, my soul: the Lord is on thy side.
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain.
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change, He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul: thy best, thy heavenly Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

Be still, my soul: thy God doth undertake
To guide the future, as He has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
Be still, my soul: the waves and winds still know
His voice Who ruled them while He dwelt below.

Be still, my soul: when dearest friends depart,
And all is darkened in the vale of tears,
Then shalt thou better know His love, His heart,
Who comes to soothe thy sorrow and thy fears.
Be still, my soul: thy Jesus can repay
From His own fullness all He takes away.

Be still, my soul: the hour is hastening on
When we shall be forever with the Lord.
When disappointment, grief and fear are gone,
Sorrow forgot, love’s purest joys restored.
Be still, my soul: when change and tears are past
All safe and blessèd we shall meet at last.

Be still, my soul: begin the song of praise
On earth, be leaving, to Thy Lord on high;
Acknowledge Him in all thy words and ways,
So shall He view thee with a well pleased eye.
Be still, my soul: the Sun of life divine
Through passing clouds shall but more brightly shine.



The third and last of the three...

There’s a peace in my heart that the world never gave,
A peace it cannot take away;
Though the trials of life may surround like a cloud,
I’ve a peace that has come here to stay!
Refrain:
Constantly abiding, Jesus is mine;
Constantly abiding, rapture divine;
He never leaves me lonely, whispers, oh, so kind:
“I will never leave thee”—Jesus is mine.
All the world seemed to sing of a Savior and King,
When peace sweetly came to my heart;
Troubles all fled away and my night turned to day,
Blessed Jesus, how glorious Thou art!
This treasure I have in a temple of clay,
While here on His footstool I roam;
But He’s coming to take me some glorious day,
Over there to my heavenly home!

 What an encouragement these songs have been. :)  Thank God for giving us music. :) 

 Posted on Google+ May 20 2012


In the service of my Father
       Hallie